Pop!

So, I'm popping this blog's cherry with a post about the reason why I started it.

I have another blog - I blog about samples that I get and try of whatever product comes in the mail for free.

However, I used to blog all the time about my personal life (a little too in-depth at times, but hell, I was young and wanted to share my enthusiasm/misery with the world) and I actually miss it because it was the best friend that never gave unsolicited advice.

Some of my friends might remember my MySpace blog (scandalous!) and all the things I used to vent about in that forum. Well, this will sort of be the same. Whenever I have something on my mind that I need a captive audience to let steam off to, I'm going to blog. I don't care if even one person reads it, just getting it out of my head and into print will make it worth it. I've been through a shit ton in my life, and my adult life isn't exactly a cake walk, either - but I'd say I'm better-adjusted and more well-equipped to deal with the mishaps now than when I was younger.

A little about me? I just turned 27 years old and I'm struggling with being so close to 30. I'm not sure where my life is going but it certainly feels like NO WHERE right now. I dislike my job that I have had for 2 years, but I'm trying to find a suitable (and better-paying) new one. It has been almost a year since I have lived in my current little townhouse with my boyfriend, who I love very much. I have a son, too, who most literally saved my life... and still does, every single day.

My boyfriend is 24. He's really a mess sometimes, but the important part is that I love him and we've been together for almost 2 years, though we have some "history" before that. Right now, he's working off back child support in Work Release. Right before Christmas - AND our anniversary. I'm not exactly happy about it, clearly. He has 2 kids, a boy and a girl. Our relationship hasn't been the easiest - but anything worth having is worth fighting for, and I know in my heart he's the one for me.

My son will be 7 this month. I had him when I was 20, obviously. He was the biggest shock of my life, but he came along at a crucial point in my life and he changed everything before he was even born. While I sat in the bathroom with the positive test in my hand, it was like my whole situation and everything I should have been doing was so clear all of a sudden. Even though he was a surprise, he is the best thing that ever happened to me. He's so smart, he reads books to me and he knows more math now than I knew in 5th grade. He just amazes me.

I live in a little nothing town that is beside some other nothing towns that are filled with douche bags and raging sluts and a few unfortunate awesome people like me who just fell into the madness somehow, or grew up with it and never got out. I grew up in a town like these and I got out just to come to another one. I always say, though, it's not the place - it's the people.

There's a whole lot of other shit I could talk about - like my favorite everything and how I love cuddling and long walks on the beach - but we'll get to all that one day. Until then...

<3 J